So as I sit here....and I plot on how my days gon' get better, so many memories come to my mine. And only one result comes to mine. It's a bit bittersweet.
I can recall a time where it was lovely when I met you. I recall that time cause I wanna rewind time and go back...I can't get you outta my mind. I want you to leave alone cause you killing me. Like this no good treatment I'm getting....it hurts. Normally, it wouldn't be so bad...but it's one element that tends to mix things up.
If I wanted to seperate from you....I can't. Thanx to this...this beautiful life being brought into this world....I can't get away from you. It's not even that I want to...but you pushing me to hate you sooooo much. The bullshit, the evil treatment, the spitefulness, everything.
I wanna go back to times like the pic below. Where everything was great...it was a beautiful bridge being built. A few kinks...the kinks grew...but yet and still we conquered. I can't say nothing else except I'm hurting. The thing is you realize I'm hurting...and that's fucked up cause all I've done was try to grow as a man and be better for the baby and you.
If you ever see this, I hope you get a feeling of what I'm feeling. Cause this is just wrong. This whole situation is wrong. But yet and still, I'm willing to let everything go. I'm willing to wipe the slate clean. Cause the reality is, there's no other way. This is our child. And I'm gonna bring him up into a family oriented home.
I'm rambling on cause at this moment, I can't find anything to do to get this outta my mind.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKKK!!!!!
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