PSSTTT.....(What I'm thinking...)

Hey...hey you....The Reader....

Yea, you. Hey, hi, how ya doin'?

Good I hope. Listen, I gotta get this out.

I been holding this in for quite sometime.

Well, maybe somebody knows..but I don't think they'd know enuff to care.

This is probably the only spot I can count on nobody reading it. Or at least giving a shit. Now promise you won't reveal yourself until time calls.

So here's what I'm thinking as of now.

(whispers) I'm missing somebody real tough right now. I say real tough because I think it's a lost cause. It's a lot that goes into it.

She's the mother of my child. (Of course you know how that happens). And b4 I knew about the pregnancy..things were going great. We've argued time and time again..but who hasn't?! So it was all good...and things were headed into a monogomous turn. I was sure to stop my foolishness and call it one. Then I guess the pregnancy got to us. She disappeared on me at a point and time. Then she came back a different woman....

For the good and the bad. She seems more focused. And I love it....but I guess I was the cause of her not to be when she wasn't. So she's moved on without me.

Can't say I blame her. I blame us really. We both hurt each other at some point. Never really resolved it peacefully.

But in all, the fact remains. And I've repeated this over and over, but nobody seems to believe me or wanna encourage for that matter.

Truth is....I'm lonely. Not just any ol' lonely. I'm lonely, without.....her.

And it's funny. Cause with all this ass I could get.....and all these chicks that actually want to fuck me....few girls that actually want me to wife them up...and all this pussy that I could very well be smashing....I'm gonna tell the truth...

I....don't wanna do that shit no more. Like it's getting old to me....

I'm almost bored...with multi-pussy! This single life bores me...but I can't call it quits just yet....not by choice anyway. Because if it were my choice, I'd hang it up now. With the one girl....that one woman....that changed me into a better man.

You know...they say things pertaining to things like this.Every King needs a queen. An Adam to an Eve. With every great man, a great woman is ridin' beside him.

........Sad part is...I lost mine. And it sucks!
How am I to look her in the eye and not feel? How can I hide em' when my child gets here? He's gonna know.

Why does it even have to end? I'll never know I guess. But I sure as hell wish I can just be with her right now. I don't want anyone else.

But I gotta let her go, if I truely love her. I'll still see her regardless, I guess. We stuck whether we like it or not. The crazy part was I'd like that. But even still, I gotta let her go. So now comes the hard part...

So to Rahel Kyira Cohran.......Good Bye.